I am sorry I haven't been posting. Every time I start a blog I only make it so far and then I get uncomfortable with being so "out there". I have reached that point again now and I can't get motivated to write a post. I just hate the idea of people reading and me not knowing it. I don't know why exactly. I don't know what I am afraid of? Being judged? I don't know. I should just be proud of who I am and what I think and not care that some one might be in the corner reading and judging me. I feel like I can say "I have nothing to hide" and yet in the blog world I want to hide. I don't really get it. I want to maintain privacy, but at the same time I like connecting with those of you who comment regularly and even if you don't get to comment I know you are reading. I try to remain some what anonymous, but at the same time I don't think it would be that hard to find me if some one wanted to. But so what if they did right? I don't know. I'm so wishy washy.